this friend i used to know

there is this friend that i used to know, that i used to absolutely adore. in fact, i still absolutely adore him, but i knew he was always looking for something different. not something new, but something very basic, in fact. and he found that when he moved to brazil. i haven't seen him in over a year, but i just saw a photo of him today labeled "happier than a pig in shit." i could not be happier to see him that happy.

it makes me think about all of the friends that i've ever had, and how the ones i were closest with are now almost all the farthest away. not necessarily the farthest physically, although that is true of a great number of them, but the ones that were the most special to me i haven't spoken with in the longest time.

then again i think about all of the friends that i have now, the ones that i still talk to regularly and are still a part of my life, and so many of them are so special to me, too. they've all given me different things and give me different things.

there's the party girl who i love to death because she's not scared of anything - except commitment.

there's the married one with the amazing kid who has been such an incredible role model and mentor for me.

there's the other party girl who was always scared of commitment, but is suddenly getting married.

there's all the dancers that have been in my life, and there's one special one that still doesn't know exactly where he's going.

all of the great loves in my life, i want nothing for them but happiness. and i've learned over the years that the more you give thanks for having these special people in your life, the more amazing things happen to them and to you.

so this post is in dedication to all of the friends i used to know, i know now, and i will know in the future. i wish happiness for you, i am so thankful that you are in my life - this year and every year. i am happy for you when you move on, and i am thankful for having the pleasure of seeing you happy even though you and our relationship may be long ago and far away.

fly on and say thank you.

several updates

1. i got a job. several jobs.

i started at air america as a part time call-screener, and i'll be doing that for the rest of this week. those people will hold for almost 3 hours. that's an entire show. i'm well-impressed with that.

i also have some gigs lined up at wnyc. thank you to everyone that has helped out with that!

i was working, as well, at a documentary studio as an intern. i got a little bit familiar with final cut pro, but i definitely think it was time to dip before they got too used to how hard i work! hah!

2. snoop dogg appeared on martha stewart?!



indeed my friends. indeed.

3. the number of hate crimes across america have gone up exponentially since barack was elected president. i don't understand. what the hell are people afraid of? i don't understand continued shows of racism. that thing people do when db2 shows up where they snap their head back a little like, "oh. i thought you were a white guy!" it was so subtle for so long, but i guess barack being elected has given people a reason to let that shit fly. well. that's what it is. shit.

4. thanksgiving is almost upon us, and it snowed today in nyc! i can't wait to go home to nc, shop at jc penny's, do some laundry for FREE at my mom's, and squeeze the hell out of some of my homies. it's the little things.