in other news

you remember that position that i was going to interview for internally? it's the producer position.

yeah, i know, some of you are thinking, "but i thought you were ALREADY a producer." well. i am. but not in name. technically speaking, i'm just a temp and i'm a researcher, but realistically speaking, i'm a producer. i just don't have any benefits or business cards.

but after that interview i just had ... that may all be changing.

I AM A JOURNALIST - HERE ME ROAR!

ok fine dammit

found me a new delicious blog to snack on. this lady is hilalalalarious.

giving away your power

that last quote is the thought of the day. i've spent a few days over the past week talking to myself about the open position where i work saying - well those other people that applied, they're probably more qualified than me. i mean i heard one of them used to work at the ny times. and one of them does more editing than i do, so they'll probably hire her.

HELLO NETTA! you already do what would be required of someone in that position. you just do it for less pay, no benefits, and at the crappy desk. so, i applied this morning.

i'd like to thank the editor of the show for reminding me that i hadn't submitted yet and reigniting my shine. for a second i was thinking, they won't even miss me if i don't apply. they missed me!

lesson in this - don't wait for someone to miss you. go ahead and step up to the plate, and cut it out with all that negative self-talk. you just talkin yourself out of fabulous! girl bye.

be fabulous.

Our deepest fear is not that we’re inadequate. Our deepest fear is
that we are powerful beyond all measure. It is our light, not our
darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be
brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not
to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the
world.

-Marianne Williamson

drag bingo

oh yeah - drag bingo was THA BOMB. i highly recommend that others attend. mary kay mart is hilarious. devonetta was in full effect.

loft 135 saw a number of lesbians and special guest played some nice diddies. several other friends showed up and we went back to my homie's palace at progress energy for a late night poobah dance session.

why i want to live in sf

there are many reasons i want to live in sf. not least that it's the most walkable city in the united states. surprise!

check out this website to find out how walkable your neighborhood is ... mine scored a shameful 32. 32 out of 100!

to don't list

everyone has a to do list. do this, do that, complete this, complete that. and it's healthy to make lists, but everyone should keep in mind to not make it too complicated along the way. if you overcomplicate something you're trying to achieve then it's not nearly as much fun getting there.

what i'm trying to say is - don't sweat the small stuff along the way and continually persist in any situation that becomes tough. the worst thing they can say is no.

it is with that in mind, that i present you with my "to don't" list:

1. don't overanalyze your body, your job situation, or where you live
if i had negative self talk and kept getting mad at my body for not working the way i want it to, then it's not going to push me toward progress. a body is just like a child, it needs to be encouraged and loved in order to bloom. the same applies for those looking for a job - whether or not you have one now that you hate, love, or don't have one at all. you must stay positive during all the bumps in the road. if you hate where you live, make a list of the positives and find another place that has those positives and more. work towards your goals with a positive outlook and you will find yourself there before you know it!

2. stay positive
number one feeds right into number two - if you're overanalyzing you are very likely to see the negatives in a situation. it will be so much easier to spot the possible disaster that could occur should you venture down a path not taken. if you overwhelm yourself with the possibilities of all the bad things that could happen - you run the risk of never getting started in the first place!

3. don't be a martyr
it's ok to ask for help no matter what you're working on. in fact, you should get as many people as you possibly can helping you out. sure it might feel great to say, i did this all by myself! but you can get their more quickly and you'll be less stressed if you just ask for some help. no one likes a martyr.

4. it's ok if it's not perfect
nothing is perfect. no path or outcome will be a perfect ride. fall down 7 get up 8, and you will get there with good enough. perfectionism will only frustrate you and those people that you're asking to help!

5. laugh and keep it movin (ok so this isn't totally a to don't)
so things aren't going to go right all the time in whatever task you've chosen to tackle. when they don't, keep it movin! it's ok to be upset for a minute, no one can be positive all the time, but it's so much easier and more enjoyable if you can laugh at the downfall, learn from it, and move on. so keep a sense of humor about you.

plastic ocean

i guess someone else decided to go ahead and make a documentary of the same thing that i did a show on. i wish cnn had covered my piece.

i guess that's enough bellyaching for one day. i'm feeling tortured. but not like an artist.

ain't that the truth

Paul of Tarsus, got it right when he said, ‘In all your dealings with one another, speak the truth to one another in love that you may grow up.’

from an article called "an ideal husband"

paperbackswap

so i read. a lot. well, a lot more than a lot of people i know, and it can get really expensive to read a lot because books are expensive, shipping's expensive, and i ain't paid. solution to this problem? paperbackswap.com

i've sent out a ton of books, and so far, i've been credited for a few of them being received. i'll report back on how all this goes ... i'm still waiting for my first one to arrive.

they're going to get us all killed

one way or another, the bush administration is going to kill all the little people.

"Mr. Burnett’s letter said the council 'requested that I work with C.D.C. to remove from the testimony any discussion of the human health consequences of climate change.'"

cheney's office had people from the epa remove from the official testimony on climate change any mention of the negative effects that it will have on human health.

i don't understand why they would do that or why in the world you would want to prevent fixing the problem. i mean, unless the bush administration members are not human. which, i'm not saying is impossible considering ...

rut of nc

i cannot get back into the rut that is chapel hill
i feel like i fell right back into it when i got off the plane

the food
the job
the tired
the kind of bored

sf i am coming! i don't know how, but i am!

note to self - maybe work for 2nd life?